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September 7, 2024“Our children are brave, but their mission is vague…” — Kae Tempest I woke this morning...September 7, 2024How many times have you found yourself doing something that no longer made sense? How many times...September 7, 2024It was a delightful surprise to discover that when I make a boundary, I meet you. I remember...18, Start Now!
I remember as a young child hearing and seeing the promise of turning eighteen - in movies, books, songs, adults talking about it, older friends experiencing life (I would say now, surviving) in the height of their youth with drugs, parties and, apparent 'freedom'.
The Promise was a Fantasy, with two components.
Fantasy One
First there was the excitement, the hope, the joy: "I'm finally going to be free to do what I want. I will be able to have my own time, pursue my passions, experiment with new things, drive, drink, smoke, go to parties and leave without telling anyone, have sex whenever I want and with whomever I want. I will be able to live my life the way I want to, to be radically free". Life, I thought, was really beginning.
Fantasy Two
At the same time there was this other side filled with despair, fear, depression, terror. Sentences and thoughts spiriled through my mind, "the economic systems are collapsing, the environment is collapsing, everything is collapsing, and I can't do anything about it". I came to the conclusion that, “I am helpless” and was scared of my fast approaching “adulthood”.
Questions riddled me,
"How will I live my life? How will I pay my bills? How will I make money? How will I change the world?"
Pressure filled me,
"I need to be somebody, I need to find meaning in my life, I need to find my purpose, I need to get a good job that will give me stability and security."
Until I finally concluded,
"Since I can not do anything to change the world, at least I'm going to take care of my own life. I need to go to college, that's the ticket to a good job and then a good life."
And then what?
What happens in real life? What happens when all these promises are fulfilled in whole or in part, or broken in whole or in part? What if you find out that it was all a lie? That you wasted years of your life in school to become an expert at being an external reward seeker?
What If:
- You discovered that the life you are living now no longer works?
- You decided to take a stand to create something different and step out of the patriarchy?
- You learned to go into the unknown with your fear and take the risk?
- It's time for you to take the next step in unfolding your potential and who you are in the world?
- You stopped fighting the system and what already exists and used all that energy to create what you want?
- A more beautiful world could be created that your heart knows is possible?
What then..?
WELCOME TO SOMETHING ELSE
I invite you to a Path of Empowerment, TeamWork, Possibility, Love, Clarity, Adventure, Aliveness and High Level Fun.
As you choose to walk this Path, things in your life will fall apart. It will be painful, it will be uncomfortable, it will be insane.
You will wake up some days with doubts and fears, 'what if my parents were right? what if the media, my friends, everyone were right?', 'what if I'm doing shit and destroying my life by choosing to follow the intuition of my being?'.
It is ok. You keep going.
A Note on Fantasy Worlds
When you are in a fantasy world, you do not believe that you are in a fantasy.
The fantasy really seems to be reality, it seems to be true the story you have been told. And the more evidence you create that this is true, the more you begin to be convinced that there is no other possibility.
"The world is like that. Period."
An indication that you are in a fantasy is when your fantasy world is confronted with a question, a perspective, a possibility, an experience, a suggestion, and you find yourself reacting to it: defending yourself, fighting back, trying to convince the other person, telling them they're wrong, you're right, 'this isn't for me,' blaming, saying 'she's saying that because she's privileged and white."
As you read this website, you may find yourself being confronted with some of these reactions. Maybe you have already found yourself in some of them, in these few lines you have already read. That is okay. I'm glad because you're feeling it, which means it's something happening more than just in your head.
If you find yourself angry, or scared, or puzzled by any of the ideas in this website, it could signal that you have discovered a new territory in yourself. That could be a place where further clarity and experimentation can happen. Do not be surprised if Emotions arise while reading this website. I suggest not hesitating to write your Emotion and its trigger in the back pages of your notebook, and then doing the associated Emotional Healing Process (EHP) at your earliest convenience. You can ask for it in this group.
Get Liquid. Have Fun!
Sylvie Guillem
"If you spend your life just doing what other people tell you to do, it's not your life.
It's their life."
Where does the younger generation stand nowadays?
What is the reality of being 18?
The younger generation today is lost, frightened, angry, in depression, anxiety, worries, false joy, they are, in desperation, looking everywhere (even in death, with suicide) for life, for love, for connection, for presence, for community.
The younger generation today is experiencing in every way, on an individual and collective level, how the system that exists today DOES NOT WORK.
Young people are being subjected to a 20th century "education" in a 21st century world. And they are being taught to adapt. Accept it. Give up. Or fight it. Rebel against it.
Where are The Initiations?
You may have turned 17, 18, 19, 20, and instinctively you were ready. Some big shift was about to happen… you waited… for what?
You were waiting for your Initiation. Initiation is a transitional process where the child in us needs to break away from the childhood view that “Mum and Dad will provide, take care of me, clean up the messes, and create some kind of order in my world”.
The rational mind, which is fully developed around 12, 13 years old, wants to push the cognitive forms of reason and logic to their limits. The emotional and energetic body wants to be nourished and kept alive with experiments, shared circle spaces, emotional work, free expression and use of pure Anger, Fear, Sadness and Joy, holding and physical touch, being with and in nature. The physical body is full of hormones and changes and wants to express itself. The Archetypal Body begins to get mature and ready to be awakened.
All these needs of young adults for Life, for Transformation, for Healing, for Initiation do not take place in a Patriarchal culture. There is no preparation for Adulthood. In patriarchy, it's not even recognized that we have an emotional, energetic and archetypal body. Growing up it was hammered into you, that 'you are a mind in a physical body'.
At the age of 16 or 17 when the child is ready, modern culture fails us. It does not provide a responsibly held space where the young person can let their childhood survival strategies die so to be authentically reborn as an Adult.
There is no place dangerous enough for for that sort of death, so there is no breaking through their own limited of survival mechanisms and no taste of their authentic adult state, free from survival patterns.
In modern culture, Being, Presence, Attention, Conscious Creation, Purpose are not valued qualities to be nurtured. Therefore, there is no space of possibility for your Archetypal body to come alive in that Culture.
So you go through this age, this period of life, ready to be initiated, to be prepared to have your purpose awakened, and there is this huge despair phase of reaching a limit of searching for meaning and not finding it nowhere. And in addition to this phsycological, emotional, physical, energetic individual dimension, there is the global environmental context.
The Hard Stuff
There is a fear (people like to call it anxiety) that things are not going well, and we have more and more evidence of this in everyday life. The rivers dry up, the seasons change drastically in all countries, people thinking that food comes from the supermarket, wars happening everywhere on a massive scale, food being poisoned by what they call pesticide, species being decimated at the speed of light, people fighting to change a system that works perfectly for the design and context in which it was formed.
As we face the reality of what is happening in the world right now, we face the horror of thinking there is nothing we can do about it. There are 'despair narratives' that want to make sure that you are just another helpless, powerless, victim in the world.
"These narratives try to rob you of your life, they tell you that your desire to contribute to life and beauty on earth will not work because it will be washed away in the flood of catastrophe that is inevitably upon us. These stories tell you that we, human beings, are victims, separate, isolated individuals, and that nothing you do and nothing you change in your life matters."
- Charles Eisenstein, An Intergenerational Conversation
Another evidence that many scientists, friends, parents, teachers use to prove this story is a Newtonian perspective (something moves when you apply a force, the more force you apply to it, the more the object moves in space): your power to change something depends on your ability to exert a force in the world. "Well, you are just one person, what can you do in the face of these enormous forces that we are facing today? Not much. So you are helpless, powerless. You can go home and try to figure out your own survival and not give a shit about anybody else".
This creates so much confusion in our hearts and minds because it contradicts an intuitive knowing that the choices you make, specially the ones that come from your heart, from Love, from Joy, from your Anger, are important. These choices feel important. You are asked to override and numb that feeling. You are asked to sacrifice your 'intuition', and prostitute yourself to the system.
"Suicide is the 2nd leading cause of death in the world for those aged 15-24 years."
"I hear people say what a selfish act suicide is. Especially for young people who have their whole lives ahead of them.
What if people who use the strategy and fantasy of suicide are actually the “canaries in the coal mine?”
What do I mean?
"My great uncles, as miners in my hometown, used to take Canaries down the coal mines as an indicator and detector of the presence of carbon monoxide. The bird’s rapid breathing rate, small size, and high metabolism, meant the birds would quickly succumb, giving the miners time to take action.
The men and women choosing to take their own lives, are highlighting the dangers of our “coal mine” current culture. They are the canaries in the coal mine indicating that something is drastically wrong with our current culture!
Humans create a steel numbness bar and “square their shoulders” to survive. But suppressed, mixed, and unexpressed emotions create dis-ease personally and relationally. The darkest culmination of this numbing is death through suicide. It makes a lot of sense to me when I read about the amount of young people committing suicide, or with chronic levels of depression and anxiety and all kinds of illnesses. It shows how insane and sick society has been built on itself."
The Reality of the World
I invite you to get together with one or two of your friends and create a 3 to 4 hour space to watch this documentary together, talk about it and express your feelings.
Add paragraph text here.Being Lost In The Dust
Right now, as I write this website, I am in a hostel full of young people, in the north of New Zealand. There are at least 40 young people here, between the ages of 17 and 26. They are here on vacation or backpacking around the world. There are parties, games, lots of socializing, music, loud conversations and jokes.
I've talked to some of them and asked some questions about their life, about being a young person nowadays, about how they become adults. When I look into their eyes, when I look into their souls, I see despair, depression, terror, anger, sorrow, and some joy (but most of it is fake). All they can show is a fake happy face that pretends everything is okay.
One young woman, who is not numb enough to not feel her sadness, could let some tears follow her cheeks as she shared with me:
"You know, I was in university and I decided to leave and I used all my savings to leave my parents' house and travel because they told me I couldn't be with them if I didn't go to university. I would rather leave their house than stay at the university. So now I'm here traveling and I'm glad about that, and I'm also anxious. I don't know what to do. I'm lost. I don't want to go back to university and I don't want to work in a company that I know supports the killing of life. But my money is running out. I need to make money. I don't know what to do."
I could see myself in this young woman, 2 years ago. My parents did not expel me from their home, they were very supportive and encouraged me, but even then, this being lost rested within me. After spending 12 to 15 years at school, being told what to learn, what to do, even when you can eat and go to the bathroom, makes sense to be lost.
"A student asked the teacher: Why do our grades matter? Why should we care so much when we spend so many hours here doing everything to get good grades?
The teacher replied: Well, your grades matter because they go on your transcript, which goes on your college application, and that determines whether or not you can get a good job in the future, so you should really care. It's your ticket to success.
Philip Eisestein says after sharing this dialogue: But almost no one cared about the grades, it was a peer performance, they were looking for something to care about, something to commit to." - An Intergeneration Conversation with Charles and Philip Eisenstein
What am I doing here? Why am I here? What is human being for? What is life for? What am I for?
Today there are not so many accessible places where we can experience Reality and access ourselves and in relating with each other answers to such Questions. If the culture's only answer is to pretend that it is meaningful to maximize oneself, to have a good job, to be successful, and to make money, then Life it's being killed.
Young adults in modern culture go through self-created initiations such as getting a driver's license, shaving, getting into college, getting a first paycheck, drinking to excess, using drugs, driving fast, engaging in high-risk adventurous activities, robbery, etc.
We, Young people, are thirsty and hungry for Initiations, for something to make the transition from childhood to Adulthood. We instinctively seek experiences that will take us to the death of our survival of childhood into the beginning of Adulthood.
Admitting to be lost in that place it is a good beggining.
A Conversation Between Charles Eisenstein and Philip Eisenstein about Youth and Adulthood
An Conversation about Authentic Initiation into Adulthood
What is the cost in doing what you are doing?
I remember the question my father asked me when I was about to change my mind about continuing my studies at University.
I had already completed 2 years of the course I was doing, and I was talking about dropping out to travel and experiment in life, in life itself. In that conversation, my father asked me: "What will it cost you to finish this university? You are already halfway there." He and my mother were filled with fear. They were afraid of my future and how I would handle things without the security of the knowing path. They love me, and this was their way of saying, "I love you".
My father's question opened up a whole new world for me.
I went to my room and wrote his question in my notebook. I started to answer his question literally. I started to list all the costs of continuing with the university:
- It costs me my time and energy, the time I could spend traveling and learning about new cultures, talking to people, being in nature;
- It costs my love for learning, I have been sacrificing my passion for learning for so long because every minute I spent reading and studying what the teachers told me to do, I started hating learning more and more;
- It costs the exhaustion of my physical body in handling the amount of stress and fear of not having the "right answer" that the teachers expect me to have, of not doing well on the tests.
- It has cost the new spaces that I am now from clown work, creativity studies and spiritual work groups. If I decide to stay at the university, I will pay the price of leaving these groups that feed my being;
- It will cost my aliveness and my joy of life. I would sacrifice my aliveness and my potential to create my own path and to discover by trying. After the university, it would be only 2 more years for a mester, and then 2 more years for phd, and then 20 more years working in something that gives me some money to survive, and so on and so forth
- It costs my intuition and my dignity, because by choosing to stay in the university, I would choose to believe more in what people tell me than in my heart.
I went on, I wrote pages and pages. As I did so, some questions came to me, such as:
"How come the things you love are on the periphery of your life, or you even consider creating a life where you don't have time to do them? How come you have to quit your clown class or your spiritual study group or your drama group to 'go to college'? To let you do that thing when you 'retire'?"
I began to cry. The level of sadness got so high that it broke the high bar of numbness I had built in. I could not stop crying. I was sad and angry because I realized that the price I was paying was actually too high and I had already sacrificed a lot. It was not "just another two years." It was my life.
Right there I got the fuel to make the decision.
I am OUT. This is over. I immediately called the college and canceled my registration.
While I was materializing this decision, FEAR took over my body.
And NOW? What to do now? What if this intuition is wrong? What if it's not a good idea to travel? What if my parents are right? I'm going to work, I thought. But in what?
I was lost. Doubts hit me from everywhere.
The doubts were doing what they do amazingly well, they were disempowering me and extinguishing my fire, my Anger. But back them I did not know that. I thought these voices were me.
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Before we continue, I propose you take a time to do this practice
Stop whatever you are doing and take a deep breath.
One more. Deep into your belly.
Bring your attention to the center of your abdomen. Stay there for a while.
Take a paper and a pen. Write on the top: What is the cost of doing what I am doing?
What am I sacrificing to be... (in University or to try to enter into University, for example)?
Ps: if you are not interested in University, you can use something else, like this group you are trying to fit in, or this work, or this relashionship... or whatever the thing you feel you are sacrificing things are important to you to do what others want you to do.
Then start writing everything that comes.
Do not think so much. Just write. Let your hand do it before your mind thinks. Your mind will try to analyze and think if it makes sense, it's okay. It's trying to protect you. Keep going.
Do not stop until you start to feel something. Until you start to feel anger or fear or sadness or joy. Do not stop until you feel the pain in your heart, until you get in touch with what you have been hiding, making secret and numbing.
When you start to feel, notice the tendency to numb it, that comes immediately.
The impulses to pick up the cell phone, to stop the practice, to do the next thing, to say I don't have time for this, to open the refrigerator, to go to sleep, to play a video game, to meditate, to go for a run. Stay with it. Observe what you observe. Stay with the discomfort.
After staying there, reach out to someone in this group. This is a global group of qualified people who speak different languages and facilitate listening spaces and emotional healing process. Text there "who will hold space for me to express my feelings and emotions about what I am sacrificing in my life to be in..."
This might be a new beginning. A Start Over.
Authentic Initiations Into Adulthood
"We are in a time of initiation folks, a mass initiation at the level of culture itself, a vision quest for the collective mind. Modern Culture it's adolescent, carries on with a sense of inventiveness and entitlement needs to be sloped off to make room for a more mature sense of interdependence with and responsibility to the community of life, this is the work of initiation.
I do not know if I will survive the crash of industrial civilization or the effects of climate change that this civilization has unleashed. I do know this, I have a choice about how I face it. I have a choice. We have a choice.
I can face it with a burguer in my hand and a french fry in my mounth, or I can face it with consicounes, integrity and the sense of purpose that is my birthright, I can face it on the other side of initiation a mature and related member of the community of life, standing tall, doing my best to protect and serve this earth that I love, this is the course I've chosen, this is my piked pen, I will show up.
But it is hard to sail alone. When the seas rage so fiercely. If you sail with me, we will both be stronger, and if others join us, our crew will indeed be stronger. Together we will sail out to find a new land."
Let's build a boat in case the clouds gather in the sky.
Becoming adult it is not something that happens from night to day, like becoming 18 years old. Becoming adult is a journey that has a beginning but no end.
Authentic Adulthood is a potential, not a given. At 18 you are declared by authorities outside yourself that you are now an 'adult'. However, people not automatically grow and develop into responsible, community-oriented adults by itself. It takes Adults to Initiate people into Adulthood.
"This transition to adulthood is exceedingly difficult in Western societies because there are no systems of adulthood rites to systematically guide and direct the young person through this important stage in his or her life cycle. In Western culture adulthood is seen as a status achieved at the age of 18 or 21, or simply when the person graduates from high school. Unfortunately, in most cases there is no fundamental guidance or transformation from a child to an adult that is required or expected. This “leave it for chance” approach to adulthood development is the root of most teenage and youth “adult” confusion, chaos, and uncertainty. When the youth reach a certain age, somehow they are expected to magically transformed into an “adult,” eventhough they often receive very little guidance. On the other hand, African societies systematically initiate boys and girls. They often take the young initiates out of the community, and away from the concerns of everyday life, to teach them all the ways of adulthood: including the rules and taboos of the society; moral instruction and social responsibility; and further clarification of his/her mission or calling in life." (Manu Ampim)
Initiation concerns undergoing a fundamental set of rites to start a new phase or beginning in life. It marks the passing from one phase in life to the next more mature phase. Initiation fundamentally has to do with Transformation, Healing and Responsability. Initiations were outlawed by the patriarchal empire 6000 years ago.
In the past, initiations were based on removing the child's point of origin from the nuclear family, the parents, and relocating its point of origin within the tribe, within the traditions. The proposal nowdays in Possibility Managment is not to bring back this same kind of initiation, because the conditions of our time are completely different from those of the past. The 21st century requires other types of initiations. The times nowdays asks for Initiations where people can stand in their power as Creators and Inventors, shifting from being a consumer (a planet), into being a source of creation (a star).
To find Initiations and process of Growing up, will take you to go to the edges of modern culture. Going to the edges means going to places you do not know. Places that are not on Netflix and mainstream media. Places your friends don't talk about. Places that are not in the books, actors, and studies offered by your teachers and your university. Places that are not in the comfort of your parents' house.
Your Conscious Fear is your compass and your ally.
A part of the text 'A Tadpole’s Tail' . Written by Martín Prechtel
"The strong instinct young people have to be enamored of magnificent chieflike heroes, to follow political movements, to imitate celebrities or to espouse big ideas, comes from all people’s natural gravitation toward a confrontation with the divine in this world. However amateurish, the young long for the spirit, for the deliciousness of living life beyond the calculated hum-drum, survival and safety of their parents’ world.
In their idealism, some youths want to “fix” everything. In a frustrated disillusionment other teenagers want to destroy everything that has gone away in a world that was handed to them, a world already ruined by “stupid” adults. In either case, the youth want to charge up a hill at the enemy.
The main difference between the cultures who send their youth to war or corporations and the culture of a Mayan village lay in the fact that the village elders did not send their youth off to war armed with computers, swords, rocket launchers, or tanks to kill and raid, creating more Death. Very significantly, they sent their Rainwarriors to fight against the Deity of Death, to fight Death itself, not to make more death but to coax Death into releasing life back to us.
People who didn’t fight Death in adolescence were destined to live in a walking death (zombies). Already killed, depressed, and dangerous they become wreakers of violence, makers of death, corporate soldiers, and, more importantly, they become the destroyers of all that is Female.
Because they had not fought Death, Death still had their souls, their Female Spirit Brides. Because these uninitiated men have no souls, they begin to “steal” women, to “rob” the Female Earth of its minerals, trees, and wealth, in a vain attempt to fill that hollow place in them where the Female soul should have been sitting, trying to steal a soul, just as Death had stolen the Goddess from life to fill his emptiness.
If initiation is about culture and the modern world desires initiation it will have to redefine itself. A new culture would have to develop where humans and their inventions are not at the center of the universe, and where God too is not at the center. What could be at the center is a hollow place, an empty place, where both God and we humans could sing and weep together as a team pushing magical words into that sacred Hole. "
Martín Prechtel describes beautifully the necessity of facing death. In the absence of Authentic Initiatory processes in modern culture, some young people decide to create certain deaths themselves. This takes many forms; some examples are screaming at friends or teachers at school, or even literally killing themselves. Many of those who do not literally kill themselves choose to kill themselves gradually in other ways, such as not living the life they want.
When you conform to the system and decide "I'm going to go the way my parents went", you are killing yourself because you are not living your life. Instead you are living :
- what your parents want you to live.
- what the government wants you to live,
- what the media wants you to live,
- what the vocational test wants you to live,
- what your friends want you to live,
- what your teachers want you to live.
You have to sacrifice your soul and heart's desires to be "falsely" accepted and loved. On the surface, it may seem like a good thing, something civilized and "normal" for you to be successful. But deep down you are slowly killing yourself. You are creating a life of frustration, pressure, illness, despair, depression and ambition.
IT TAKES PREPARATION TO GO THROUGH INITIATIONS
Being born and raised in modern culture took you far away from your Being, from thriving as human being on Earth. It also didn't prepare you to grow up, to enter adulthood. On the contrary, we have been prepared for years to obey, to copy, and to remain like children, making messes and waiting for others to clean them up and save us. We have been trained for years to sit on metal or wooden chairs that take us away from being human.
Therefore, before even trying to 'become adults', there are certain preparations to go through first that will enable you to reclaim your humanity.
As you regain your innate abilities as an alive human being, such as feeling your feelings, communicating what you want and need, making contact and connection, you start to build the necessary Matrix to take more responsibility in the world.WHAT IS IT ABOUT THIS GAMEWORLD?
There is a potential in you, young adult, as Spaceholder for the Now and for a possible Future.
You do not need a job, you need Initiation into Authentic Adulthood and the Liberation of your Potentials in Archan /Gaian Gameworld.
18, What Now? is a gameworld with the purpose to empower and prepare you, young adult, to go through Authentic Initiations into Adulthood and step into and deliver your own non-material value.
I call it an Institute of the Technology of Living because this space is a territory where you're given the opportunity to learn skills that bring you closer to being human and living.
What might be stopping you?
In short: UNCONSCIOUS FEAR.
You have learned to be afraid of your fear. You learned to numb your fear. You built up many amazing and creative ways to survive though your childhood.
You made it and were successful in it.
This has kept you where you do not want to be. It has kept you stuck in the prisons that society has made for you.
You make the fear of leaving where you are greater than the fear of staying where you are.
There are two main fears that have probably kept you stuck in the decision to move your Point of Origin from linear life plan (University, Work, Money, House, Care, Marriage, Family, Vacation, Car, Retirement and Death) to something else:
1FEAR OF NOT HAVING ENOUGH MONEY
In the book Sacred Economics, Charles Eisenstein describes money as, "I have something you need, and I want to give it to you. So I do, and you are grateful and want to give me something in return. But you don't have anything that I need right now. So instead you give me a token of your gratitude-a useless, pretty thing like a wampum necklace or a piece of silver or, nowadays, cash. This token says, "I have met other people's needs and earned their gratitude."
Money is one of the resources that exist today. But it's not the only one. There are a number of other resources, such as connections with people, questions (which create opportunities and necessities for your gifts to come through), your feelings, your Brigh Principles, your intuition, your team of friends...
One way has been empowering me to learn to source money in my life in different ways then I was hammered at school and in family it's to give. To give the people around me presence, listening, clarity, love, possibility, inspiration, encouragement. To be of service wherever I am, to be who I am, and to give without measure.
It took about a year and a half of learning skills and healing some emotional fears (like I'll die if I don't have money) to get the resource money through who I am.
During that time I did manual things (like creating website for people, editing videos, creating designs, cleaning...) to create money to go in trainings, travel and sustain myself.
There is a lot we can explore here.
I'll also come up with more videos sharing the discoveries I've made so far on this topic.
2FEAR OF WHAT PEOPLE WILL THINK ABOUT YOU
"If I start doing what I really want to do, what will people think of me? What will my parents think if I decide to leave university? What will my friends think if I start that xxx project I've been dreaming about?"
This is a common emotional fear around us. Mainly because as a child we did not have our basic needs of belonging and love fulfilled. As 'adults' we try to do whatever it takes to fulfill these needs, even though we know that we cannot change the past. Even that we have to sacrifice great things, like what we want to do, in order to anticipate the future of someone judging or criticizing us.
People pretend to love things like 'drinking' or 'football'. Most people don't really love football or drinking, but they love the feeling of belonging that they can access through football or drinking. The feeling that comes from sharing an experience with a group of 'I'm part of it'.
There is layers of healing to do in this territory to open more space to choose something else then basing the root of your decision in belonging.
Besides that, what I can encourage you to do is to create a team, to get along with people and meet weekly, a space where you can share your feelings, practice skills, be completely honest.
Possibilities And Doorways
You might be reading this website and wondering. Okay. I have the picture you are painting. But what now? How can I change my life? How do I deal with the practical things, like money? How can I take care of my basic needs without sacrificing my life to a corporate job? How can I learn the skills I want to learn? How can I learn to learn? How do I get through the initiations? How do I find my fellow companions of journey?
There is no magic answer to these questions. There is no single answer. There is no linear starting point. The path there is a biggning, but no end. You choose the beginning. I am not going to be the person to tell you what to do or to say first do this and then do that.
However, there are opportunities and doorways that you may want to try and experiment with.
If you decide to jump out of the patriarchy, it will be dark. By dark I mean unknowable, frightening, unpredictable, unstable. All of this goes against your mamifero brain, which is looking for what is safe, predictable and constant. These possibilities are some lighters you can use along your path.
Possibility Teams are groups of people from all over the world, online and offline, who meet to support each other in their projects, practice skills, hold emotional healing and listening spaces for each other, play games, and whatever else comes up to connect the people in the space.
In this calendar you can find the active teams and join them. You can use the filter (study group or possibility teams).
Go travel
Check the things you have not used in the last two weeks. Maybe it's your guitar with cobwebs in the corner. Maybe it is clothes you do not use anymore, or a computer, or toys from your childhood. Whatever it is, collect these things and sell them.
Use that money to take a cheap trip to a place near where you live. Instead of taking a plane or bus, hitchhiking, staying in hostels or camping, talk to the local people. Explore. Try to be present in reality, not so much in the virtual world.
Share your experiences through video, writing, or whatever your way of expressing yourself is.
ETB means Expand the Box. ETB is an initiatory 5 day training where you learn to add the F to your own shit. It is a space where you experience shift after shift.
Shift in the way you relate to your feelings and emotions. Shift in the way you learn. Shift in the way you relate with Responsability. Shift in your relationships. Shift in the way you see and connect with money, earth, culture, life.
It's a shift into composting the Shit to become earth to sprout your seed. Seeds that your being carries within you to a brighter future.
Commit yourself to join one of the next ETBs will happen around the world. Commit before you know how. Start saving and creating money for that,
Visions to the Future
1. This is my plan of what I will do when I have 100 million euros. If any of the values and projects mentioned there atracts you, maybe you are the person with you I might want to collaborate with you. Let's have a call. Text me here.
2. I will create a fund pool where young adults can borrow money to begin their path of initiation into adulthood and also their path as a spaceholder for what turns them on.
It will be a fund for the purpose of financing education and initiation into adulthood for young people between the ages of 17 and 23. The application process itself will be a journey of transformation and experimentation. For those who wish to apply to receive the gift, there will be an interview to tune in the person's background and purpose, and then an acompaniment of experiments that build a matrix in the person to learn to "fish", such as "write your 100 million plan", create a gift with their hands and give it to someone, spend a month volunteering in a prison, or in an elderly home, or something like that... The experiments will depend on where the person is and the neecessity.
It is not about filling out a form and saying how committed you are. It is a journey where you become the commitment to your own path. The experiments that are offered along the way teach you to fish, not just give you a fish to feed now and the next day you start yourself.
3. I dream of a future where there are physical centers around the world for young people to come together to fall into, and shift from Moder Culture do Arquiachy. A place to empower each other to grow, to practice spaceholder, healing and game world builder skills, and to be with each other.
Do you have a piece of land or a house that needs a guardian and a steward? Are you available to lend your space for a few weeks to have the first "pancake", the first pilot of this project?Contact me. I have proposals to honor and use the land for a brighter future for humanity.
UPCOMING EVENTS
Enter spaces to practice, create new possibilities, start over, experience high-level fun and adventure, and make new friends who may become your companions on this Path.
ON-LINE, WEEKLY WOMEN'S CIRCLE
Watering the Woman's Heart
This is a space for young women to gather and hold space for each other's hearts, feelings, dreams and creations.
In patriarchy our heart dries up. Our radiance begins to be turned off. We face competition, comparison and hatred among our fellow women.
There is a culture that exists out of patriarchy. It's possible to let the patriarchy out of you. This is a space for you to take steps in that direction. This is a space for you to water your feminine heart and seeds. This is a space for you to practice listening and speaking from your heart.
To participate, you must commit to coming to our 4 meetings, Sundays, from 2:30 to 4:00 p.m. Mexico time. Begins on the 22nd.
Donation based
Love, Gabriela
Contact Gabriela Fagundes here to join.SERVICES
LEARN TO CONSCIOUSS FEEL
1 TO 1 AND GROUPS
"As long as that’s working why would I stop- I won’t stop until is not working."
Hitting bottom is when you reach a point that is not working any more. And just from this place somethig else is possible.
Feelings are the doorway to reach the bottom, the place when is not working any more.
Start over the way you relate to your feelings.WHAT NOW? GUIDANCE FOR NEXT STEPS NOW
There are 'simple' and real questions that we did not had space at our family, and at school to discover maps, create possibilities and choose options besides of what is offered in the menu.
Some of those questions are:
- How will I make money?
- How does money works?
- Where will I live?
- How to relate to other human being? How to communicate my feelings?
- How do I create Culture?
- Where does comes from the water and the food? How will I feed myself?
One to one sessions for you create possibilities for practical questions such as those ones.
WHAT ELSE BESIDES UNIVERSITY?
We grow up in a square and linear way and we are convinced that at 18 we can choose who we are going to be, which means what university I will go to and what profession I will have. I remember the despair of not knowing what other possibilities there were besides the ones I was offered. I didn't see myself in any of the professions offered by the university.
I want more young people to discover that there is more than what we are told. There is a whole world of possibilities. You will probably invent your career because what you came here to do is unique.
I offer an individual space to accompany you, young person, on this journey of discovery. I come to you in chaos. I don't have a solution. All I have are my space holding skills and my experience as a young woman who chooses to risk walking into the unknown and going in different directions. If this is what you need, contact me.
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Becoming Money
Here there are some articles and ways to go deeper in that research, with practical actions to take.
Your "problems" with money may not necessarily be about money itself. But a lack of skills to communicate, to ask, to make proposals, to consciouss create. You may also be lacking the radical reliance and experiential access to the vast inner resources you have with you, inside you.
For the last two years I've been doing experiments to create a new relationship with money and my inner and outer resources. You can find some of this research in these articles. If you would like to know more, please contact me for an interview.
Article: Unleash your energy for creation
Article: What is blocking you from Unfolding your Essence
Sacred Economics: Money, Gift and Society in the Age of Transition, Charles Eisenstein
Tanika Tales
ON A SOFT green planet, a smiling baby was born in an orchard resplendent with every kind of fruit in the universe. The baby’s parents called her Tanika, and Tanika spent her days roaming the warm wet ground on hands and knees. Spotting a clump of gulberries off in the distance, she’d crawl after it and crush the sweet fruit in her mouth, red juice staining her brown chin and neck. A muavo would fall fatly from the high crown of the muavo tree, and she’d savor its golden tang.
If changing your mind it is not an option, then you live in a prison
How many times have you found yourself doing something that no longer made sense? How many times have you stayed or gone to a place just because you “told” you would be there? How many times have you spent hours, days, weeks or maybe years doing something just because you started doing it? How many times have you continued with a story about yourself or the world that no longer made sense? How many times have you stayed doing work that turns you into a zombie? How many times have you turned your life from water to concrete?
If changing your mind is not an option, then, in fact, you are in a prison. No matter the context, the situation, the person, whatever, you always have within your range of possibilities, the option to give up, to change your mind, to reconsider.
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WHAT WOULD YOU TELL TO YOUR 18 YEAR OLD SELF?
Charles Eisenstein
"If I could speak to myself at 18, I would affirm: your secret suspicion that you're here for something magnificent is true. That you are here to contribute to the unfolding of the magnificence of the creation of life. To contribute to more Life and Beauty in the world; and when I say magnificent, I don't mean to be famous or successful in the outworld sense, necessarily, but something magnificent for you, it's that YES, that's why I'm here. I had that spark of knowledge, like you probably have.
Something great is going to happen in my life, and that something is going to happen beyond my life. That is what I would say, because it took me a long time to realize it, and I created so many doubts about this inner knowing and intuition that I had back then. And maybe that is part of the path. Hit a life initiation moment where you just cannot make sense of what is happening and that puts you back in the place of not knowing.
I would tell to myself: reclaim your authentic Purpose and desires."
Hello, My name is Gabriela Fagundes
When I climb a mountain I'm looking for new caves to explore, flowers I've never seen before, people I meet along the way, and animals that come to say hello. I'm looking for the breeze that unexpected kiss my skin.
I'm studying to become alife experimenter scientist, my study material: Life itself.
I have more than 100 years until I graduate. This degree requires an enjoyable experience in birds, plants, different kinds of communication, elements of nature, rivers, mountains, sky, animals and people: life in action.
Outdoor experiences with alternative community experiences and high quality human interactions are one of my few goals in life.
I carry with me a spark of energy for special environments and people who can step out of normality and into another realm of existence. One that adds mystery, feelings, aliveness, questions without answers and Cousciouss creation to life.
Interested?
So would I.
EXPERIMENTS
Things to try out and Discover as you become an Experimenter
WHAT WILL YOU DO WITH 100 MILLION DOLLARS IN YOUR BANK ACCOUNT
Are you scared of not having money? Start writing a detailed plan for what you will do (not would) with 100 million dollars.
Maybe in the beggining all you get is the 'ego' stuff, like buying a house, traveling, giving money to people around you. After that keep going. Keep writing and deepening in what things you would put your money. What are the things you give value? What are the things that really matters to you?
Let yourself get liquid while researching that questions. Let you being in a space of not knowing and being blank. Let yourself discover things might suprise you about yourself.
After you write your plan, if you want, share it with me in gabifagundes4@gmail.com. I want to read it and connect with your dreams and values.
WHAT DOES YOUR BEING LOVE?
WHAT NONMATERIAL VALUE DO YOU NATURALLY BRING
GO WILD, SIMPLIFY, AND PEEL AWAY THE LAYERS OF MADE UP 'NEEDS'
HEAL YOUR TECHNOPENURIAPHOBIA
BURY YOU UNDER THE SAND AND JOURNEY INTO THE EARTH
LEARN TO COMMUNICATE WITH E.C.C.O.
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